Your Inner Catfish

A friend of mine has a lovely aquarium full of fish. He feeds them twice a day and enjoys watching them chase after their food. He talks to them and checks regularly to make sure they are all healthy and happy.


Last summer, the big catfish disappeared. At first we though he might be hiding inside the artificial hollow rock structure. But he was not coming out to eat, not even when we tried to coax him out with shrimp pellets, his favorite food. There was no sign of him. After a few weeks without seeing him, we concluded that the catfish had died and that the other fish had perhaps eaten him. And so my friend bought two new, smaller catfish to replace him as janitors of the bottom of the tank.


Then  six months later, the big catfish magically reappeared. He scuttled out like a lightning flash, grabbed some shrimp pellets, and retreated back into the rock structure. He had been there all the time, elusively lurking in the shadows, apparently only coming out to eat when no one was watching.


For me that catfish has come to represent the lost healing and self-healing abilities that exist inside each of us all, hidden in the recesses of our hearts. 


  • Perhaps we have buried and forgotten what we once knew. 
  • We may think that our ability to heal ourselves and others has died away. 
  • Or maybe we have replaced our interest in healing with other energies that are not supporting us.

Do you have a big catfish that you have hidden away from yourself? A healing talent or goal that you think is dead? 


Open to the possibility of allowing it to resurface. Welcome it back into your life and begin feeding it its favorite food, a little bit each day, so that it may thrive out in the open for all to see.


I am very happy to see the big catfish again. I wait with eager anticipation for him to appear and celebrate his presence every time he shows himself. He is coming out more and more. And he seems happy.


I am holding space for you to rediscover your lost catfish. It is time for your hidden talents and gifts to come back out into the world and play!

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